every 2 min, 3 min, hour... ... everyday.
i thought i could wait but i keep thinking about it and so i have to get it out, work be damned!
last night at the Bath House Cultural Center there was a performance for Sexual Assault Awareness month called "from victim to survivor." working with sexual assault everyday i find it hard to divorce myself from taking it personally and i have found some rather frustrating aspects of a slow moving, poorly paced, not-so forward thinking: but still expecting to be forward moving, "non-profit" agency. if i have to hear one more time in that head slightly tilted to the side, voice lowered (as if that will ease the delivery) tone that "oh meredith, this is just how non-profit works" OR one better, "welcome to non-profit" i think i will find the closest pair of scissors and take off in a full run. i want to scream: "DO NOT STIFLE ME!" but enough about job DIS-satisfaction- the performance was moving. and it's times like now when i think back to last night that it not only makes it worth while but gives me that unexplainable peace in knowing this is where i need to be. it's strange leaving- knowing that this is not where i want to see my self 5 years (or even 2 years!) from now but knowing that what i do, the people i come in contact with, and those that i serve will forever have a small imprint on there life that is me. (and that other times... most times- it totally freaks me out because i'm scared to death that i'm going to screw up). so today, because i have to present at a high school and teenage boys always... ALWAYS ask something along the lines of- 'well, it's not rape if she doesn't say 'no' enough' <-- this drives me to drink, and there is a happy hour tonite- but back to today- today i'm going to act as though what i do matters and the resistance only further solidifies that what i do because of who i am is doing far more to help than hinder.
every 2 minutes a person is sexually assaulted
every 3 minutes a woman is battered
every hour a woman is victimized by an intimate . . .
everyday the statistics are staggering!
not everything faced can be changed- but nothing can be changed without being faced!
last night at the Bath House Cultural Center there was a performance for Sexual Assault Awareness month called "from victim to survivor." working with sexual assault everyday i find it hard to divorce myself from taking it personally and i have found some rather frustrating aspects of a slow moving, poorly paced, not-so forward thinking: but still expecting to be forward moving, "non-profit" agency. if i have to hear one more time in that head slightly tilted to the side, voice lowered (as if that will ease the delivery) tone that "oh meredith, this is just how non-profit works" OR one better, "welcome to non-profit" i think i will find the closest pair of scissors and take off in a full run. i want to scream: "DO NOT STIFLE ME!" but enough about job DIS-satisfaction- the performance was moving. and it's times like now when i think back to last night that it not only makes it worth while but gives me that unexplainable peace in knowing this is where i need to be. it's strange leaving- knowing that this is not where i want to see my self 5 years (or even 2 years!) from now but knowing that what i do, the people i come in contact with, and those that i serve will forever have a small imprint on there life that is me. (and that other times... most times- it totally freaks me out because i'm scared to death that i'm going to screw up). so today, because i have to present at a high school and teenage boys always... ALWAYS ask something along the lines of- 'well, it's not rape if she doesn't say 'no' enough' <-- this drives me to drink, and there is a happy hour tonite- but back to today- today i'm going to act as though what i do matters and the resistance only further solidifies that what i do because of who i am is doing far more to help than hinder.
every 2 minutes a person is sexually assaulted
every 3 minutes a woman is battered
every hour a woman is victimized by an intimate . . .
everyday the statistics are staggering!
not everything faced can be changed- but nothing can be changed without being faced!
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